manifest

My thesis is about tension - how tension is at the heart of everything. The composer engenders tension by depicting opposing conditions and then plays on those tensions to affect the reader/ listener. 

snakes and ladders

I went back to uni without thinking very seriously about how I was going to support myself financially. I was just following my ambition. So, after a few months, I ran out of money. 

I started looking for a job and the job I ended up getting was in the same organization (different department) that I had left, but with more responsibility, higher pay and less hours than I used to work. The new job was actually a lot more engaging than my old job. When I say higher pay, I don't just mean a higher rate. I was earning more working 20 hours than I used to earn working 35 hours a week. 

It's not a move that I could have planned out or aspired to. It just happened. It showed me that it's always worth following your dreams. 

so much

It was no accident that she was in love with contingency

dyazapam

"In the gallows I balanced on my toes so I can breathe" - Ren, Chalk Outlines

That's what I've been like with Valium, all this time as I've been tapering. It's a struggle just to exist. But now I'm starting to be able to feel OK without it. 

gorgeous

'Gimme Shelter' is the rolling stones most barock song. 

blur

if I could have one superpower I would choose understanding all poetry 

ruined not useless

The Romantics really appreciated ruins. They aren't just decrepit buildings that are no longer useful. They have real value. 

If you think of a ruin as a work of art, it can be viewed as a collaboration between nature and humanity. Human beings made the original building and then nature altered the construction over time.

We don't normally think of that process as adding value, but that's just one example of the Romantic tendency to value what is mysterious and lacking in what the world generally values. 

learn from my mistakes

Baby leopards are not kittens. They are cubs. 

lost in translation

I did well at creative writing A because they told us that you don't have to have a good idea to start with and they taught us ways of playing with language. It was really fun and creative. 

So, I did creative writing B and it was completely different. I think I failed it. This time, everyone was trying to write 'properly' - to write actual stories. 

It seemed to come naturally to everyone.