after effects

I'm still tapering off valium. I think that being on it for years has left permanent damage. What also concerns me is that the same doctors who thought it was fine for me to use valium indefinitely, also thought it was fine for me to be on one and then two anti-depressants, and to increase the doses of both. That may be fine...I really don't know...but their obliviousness to the real effects of valium on me, makes me wonder. I'm not against antidepressants. I think they can be really helpful. But I wonder about the long term effects the ones I'm on have had, and whether they have anything to do with the challenges I face.