reboot

It's hard to change because you have to let go of the old to embrace the new, and you don't really know the new.

When I stopped drinking, I began a new life, and I think of that new life as a tree. At the start it was just a seedling or a baby. Defenseless and fragile. But alive.

It's the real me. It's my real life. 

My old life is like a house that I've built to protect myself. 

I venture out into the outside world that seems so hostile and threatening and the more I do, the more I come to understand that my real life lives outside.