permanence

Recovery is more of a marathon than a sprint, but then, I was thinking that it's actually better than a marathon. There's more of a reward at the end, and you begin to reap that reward well before the end. 

I actually don't really care about the end that much. This isn't the kind of thing you can wait out. It's going to go on and on, definitely for years - it's already gone for years - and maybe for decades, maybe for the rest of my life. 

It's not linear. You go up and down, windows and waves. Life for me has always been like that anyway. But the overall trajectory is in a positive direction. I'm making permanent changes, permanent progress.