I have more moments now when I feel that I don't need to foresee loss as my fate. Still, it's really hard to break out of the cycle I'm in. It's like that infinite mirror effect. I perceive pain and distress in the present, I foresee it in the future, going on indefinitely, and that perception ensures that it will happen. My fear manifests the thing that I fear.
But I'm also manifesting something else. The self-fulfilling prophecies of doom are not true. I fear that they are true and therefore they are not true. They've never been true.
And I'm fighting my way into my new life by achieving my daily goals every day. The fact that it's hard just makes the success sweeter, as it unfolds.
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