fall

It's encouraging to remember that I'm making permanent progress. It's not a linear process, but it is going one way. 

It seems like I'm always going to be pulled back to my old self - to the ways I've always known. So, when I fall down, I see it as a recursion back to that, but it's not. 

I'm only falling down because I'm doing more now. Each fall is not really a fall. It's progress. I'm smashing through walls. I'm not falling back into my old life, I'm pushing into my new life.