beginning

I really like that analogy I heard about chopping down a tree. Recovery is like chopping down a tree. It's hard work, but once you reach that point and the tree falls, there's a complete transformation. 

I haven't reached that point yet, and I don't know if I ever will. I can't imagine it. 

It seems like this struggle goes on and on. It goes on for years and I can't see the end of it. It doesn't get easier. My struggle now is the same as my struggle decades ago. 

But what encourages me is seeing what has changed. The main change in me is that I'm able to achieve my daily goals and I know that I am growing in my ability to achieve them. 

With no end in sight, I can see eternity.