emergence Ǝ

Living in constant fear, I feel withered and traumatized. I feel like I'm always cold and can never warm up, like the ground beneath my feet keeps subsiding. What I really long for is simply what I'm supposed to have and which is slipping through my fingers. 

It's this corporeal body and mind that is getting crushed. There's an identity in each of us that is not afraid or beaten or broken - that is strong and whole. When things get really bad - when you feel like you just can't go on, and yet you do, that person emerges, and your fear is gone, because that person doesn't know fear. Fear has no purchase in their mind.