end

Withdrawing from benzos is different from withdrawing from other drugs. With alcohol, for example, you can push through the really difficult period and once through it, things get steadily better. You know that things will get better, so that sustains you through severe challenges. 

Benzos aren't like that. It does vary. Some people seem to experience that kind of dynamic, but I haven't. For me, things get worse with time, and that tendency goes on and on indefinitely - for months and years, and at times it seems like it may be permanent. It's like, you always have to move into the storm rather than taking shelter. 

I'm at a point now where I can imagine the end. I can conceive of not needing valium.