It's when you're willing to go all the way that you activate virtuous cycles. Like when I say night after night that I'm not going to take more than a certain dose of valium, even though I haven't slept well for years and every night I have intense insomnia and every morning I wake before 5, and every day I'm dizzy most of the time and experience debilitating fatigue - a fatigue that makes it hard to function, and yet I absolutely can't sleep during the day. Even though I know I'm inviting more of that by limiting my dose, and the vicious cycle that I'm in seems to go on and on and on and never end, I push....I set a standard - x amount of valium - and I stick to it, and I know that's the way forward.
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